The Passion

Today was the first rehearsal i had after my public performance in 2003. Wasn't really much of a rehearsal anyways. We were actually going thru the lines and discussing how we felt abt e script and how it can be improved. Didn't give much idea cos it was the first time reading the script and cant digest/absorb much. And I think i lost touch as well. I guessed the director had wanted an element of surprise tt's y he gave us the script only today. I was trying to read the script carefully paying more attention on the words and flow of sentence, rather than throwing emotions into it. Realised my standard of chinese had dropped. Couldn't read some words and was slow in recognising some. But my director didn't point out that I had to brush up on my chinese haha so i guess it was still passable...

This is jus the first version of the script. My role had been changed a lil. But I din feel too strongly for my character cos she's not tt outstanding. Was abit disappointed w e role but this play is more towards hmmm how do u say... feelings? I dunno how to translate the cheena drama terms here. It's like something u wud feel for rather than jus watching and laughing it off... I was actually aniticipating a more lively and vibrant play to be casted in. Cos i think all my drama life, i had like only acted in one comedy, which wasn't really a comedy actually was abit lame haha and it was only a 10 or 15 min show. What we call "xiao pin". The other alumni play wud be something closer to what I had hoped for. I dunno but maybe I have been stereotyped as an actress who acts in such show haha. Wasn't given a chance to prove my "xi gan". And well I felt I haven had my breakthrough yet, none of the roles i had was accredited. And I know this role isn't either. Sad to say but this will prolly be the last time i will be involved in a production as an actress since i will be too busy to cope with the rehearsal schedule once i start working, unless i decide to do freelance theatre performance. And also cos a sch production is unlikely in the coming yrs. But well the alumni has plans to put up a solely alumni show in 2007, so we'll see abt tt.

The only reason I had agreed to be involved in the production was the passion for acting, or performance. Both applies here. I love the stage. I like to perform with the attention of the audience. It gives me a sense of satisfaction. Jus like anyone of u would feel when u accomplish something that u r passionate about. But of cos it only applies if I had performed well. I know I would feel sad when the performances are over and i would miss rehearsals but for now it's not tt excitable yet. Looking at the rehearsal schedule, i'm starting to worry about having no time for myself, to go on a break or get away before stepping into the corporate world. There are actually free slots but I'm just afraid it's hard to fit the timing.

Well actually had a lil gossip session abt e students and teachers over dinner at 85 mkt with my fellow production friends. Haha rather fun!! Talked for like 2 hrs plus i think... Drama ple owas do tt! haha dunno y... Thou not much feelings abt e role yet, i'm pretty excited abt singing in e play haha. N this song i'll be singing will be specially penned for my role. Wow! a song for myself! My own song! haha really looking forward. But i'm not abt to reveal what my role is exactly. Think my director will kill me if i did! haha Anyways there'll be 3 performances in all, in July. Used to be only 2 in e past years. So dun give me excuses that u cant make it! haha See you there!

=There are no fairytales in real life=
Melis