It's Never enuf!
It has been a crazy week! From Christmas to new year.... To everyone I hung out with, I truely enjoyed your company. So much of partying, so much of drinking, so much of chilling....Made some new friends, some super farnie ones... like Astroboy <*deng deng deng deng deng* with hands in air>, some super ah laos ones.... So many things had happened in the past month.... like a roller coaster ride... You will know what I mean if you are meant to know it... Some things concern me some doesn't.. but still involves me... I guess that ends the year with an exclamation mark. Many things are still going through my mind but I guess i just have to learn to be absent minded... Anyways I'm still in an ultra holiday mood and I don't feel like working.... In fact I hate to work! Yes I know i shouldn't complain about my job, many people are dying to be in my place. Flexi hours, short working hours, a car and what not... I can tell you my job is pretty good, at the end of the day it's e figures that do the talking... I dunno how long I can survive there but so far things are pretty ok. I don't like to drive actually, i prefer to be chauffered, which explains why I never drive on wkends. And if not for my job, I would nv buy a car.... And I hate to lunch alone, but cos of my job I have to do that almost everyday, thou I try to look for friends to lunch with me. Sometimes I rather not eat than to lunch alone... I have always been lidat, even before this job... I guess it's not about the job, I just hate working. I very much wish I could go back to school.... I mean the stress, if any, only comes when facing datelines and exams... There is a constant pressure to perform well at work, and then I have to get scolded by docs, face charcoal-faced nurses.... I mean I don't take all these personally otherwise life will be tough... My doc did tell me something like don't mention it again before I throw u out, threw medical papers back to me etc, At the end of the day I just have to tell them Have a nice day. I'm seriously not bothered by these nasty old man, although I do have colleagues who break down right in front of the docs and get so affected and upset that their whole day is ruined. Then there are some ham sup docs who will try to take advantage of you... Just have to learn to protect yourself. I guess there's always complains regardless of what job you're in... I just want to say I'm pretty satisfied with mine though I have my fair share of complains.
It's just that I wanna feel like a student again... I wanna go back to campus I wanna be involved in activities, be around my friends whom I know I can trust, unlike colleagues whom I tend to keep a distance since you really don't know who you can trust and be close enuf to reveal too much.... I wanna be carefree, I wanna act like a kid, I wanna sit at home and msn like there's no tomorrow. I wanna go out til late nite and not worry about being tired at work the next day and can skip lectures like no one's business... I don't wanna be at the order of someone, I don't wanna force a smile when I don't feel like it, I don't wanna be a hypocrite, I don't wanna suck up to people, I don't wanna appear nice to a person when I feel like tearing his/her hair off, I don't wanna tolerate others when they are being ridiculous. I don't wanna lose myself. I guess my lifestyle and all are still closer to a student's since I've just started working. Those working adults are so different from me, I realise I can't date an older working adult.... It's a process everyone has to undergo.... Growing up... I guess I just wanna stall this process... I just want to be happy!
Dear Santa please grant my wish, Dear dunno who, pls realise my new yr resolution....
Ok incoherent writing... I'm just whining.... I love to whine haha. Cyn knows best.... I love u!! I know U think I'm mad again... But thanks for being there, silly, or shall I say idiot? Don't worry we both are....
I love Shoi's blog.... Love is in the air :D It's really everywhere, I love your quotes... I hope there'll be more unions of hearts rather than shattered pieces.... You know who you are.... Dun let it slip away.... Treasure! thou I know certain things are outta our control. OK I know.. speak for myself haha And to Mr-lose-to-takeshi-abit, I'm really happy for ya!! Thou the news came late but U told me anyways! Haha Reali is wait long jiu have huh haha.... Thanks for ur advice but I guess it's just me....
Big shoutouts to all u gals! I really love ur company!! Thanks for bringing ur frens along too cyn have u exhausted the list?? Haha But I think everything was great. I think I am rather nasty with all e criticising... But I owas kou bu dui xin lah haha Think after all this we really love each other! hahaha
