Announcement: That night

4 ex- schoolmates who have not seen one another for the past 4 years, returned to the school compound on a fateful night for an alumni gathering, only to realise that they are trapped in the school. How would they spend their night together? How would they feel about each other? How would they overcome the problems between them? How would they cope with the tension? Afterall they used to be very close friends who shared the same passion.

Or was there more to it......

For further details pls log on to http://ahscds.xrs.net/
Pls pls do not hesitate to contact me (here or via my hp) if you are interested ok? And if possible lemme know by June 4th so that I can assure you good seats and that your clique can sit together, esp for Sat night (July 16). Those whom I forced to go haha sorry you are already on my must-go list.

This will probably be my last performance so I hope to do a good job, though I'm doing bad now.... But I know I will enjoy it and I hope you do too.

SuperstarS

After catching a glimpse of me on I-weekly, you'll probably get to see me on TV. This time on <<绝对superstar>>. That's good media exposure! Lol but well don't be mistaken. I'm just there for an interview for my friend. She's the star, she's the one who got into the final 24 (12 gals, 12 guys) of the competition. And her big name is Chen Jia Xin (陈家欣). She's gonna be The Next Big Thing. So vote for her!! Haha pulling some votes here. Well although she's good, she needs alotta sms to win. 30% is judged by the judges while 70% is by sms votes. And thing is, she has no relative in Singapore. Her family's in Hong Kong. So if you think she's good vote for her. Haha Many friends and relatives had urged me to take part and asked me why I did not. Well, my answer is, I'll be booted out anyway so why bother! haha and being on the same level as Jiaxin, in the same competition? Nahz don't even think about it!

We waited for an hour or so before the camera finally got to us. We were supposed to have shots at her home and then to the park. All were dressed up but the crew decided to do our filming once and for all at the park. As usual, I blabbered nonsense haha but it's prolly gonna be removed after the edition. We had to run again and again from different angles for the capturing. I always knew filiming isn't easy. For one scene that you see on TV, they prolly have to capture it for few hours, from different angles. So you have to repeat the lines again and again. Anyways we are all ready to support her, banners, signboards, T-shirts, we thought of them though it seems very ah lao to do so hahaha. Hey but that's what they do on AMI too lol.
Which reminds me, I'm rooting for Carrie. She deserves to win, she's got the voice and the looks. Bo's range is limited. But of cos as you all know.... my favourite is still Anthony Fedorov!!

=Madness=

Unforgettable

我可以承受打击，并不等于我必须面对这种伤痛。

－－壹号皇庭III　

The same line that struck me as hard as it did 10 years ago.

Life Long Lesson

I've learnt to stop asking friends who are attached out. The reason's simple, they are always MIA, or unavailable. Even if you see them in action, they are only physically present, with their heart and mind somewhere. Here are some scenarios you might find familiar.

1. "Sorry I confirm with you again later k?" Which means he/she needs to confirm with his/her other half, to see if they are going out on a date. Sorry first come first serve doesn't apply here. The other party is his/her priority. Only when given the green light, he/she is able to meet up with you.

2. "Not free leh." For whatever reason, from meeting his/her other half, to celebrating their 248th day anniversary. And usually this reason is repeated for the umpteenth time. So much so you can predict the answer if you ever bother to ask him/her out again.

3. Even when he/she is free(once in a blue moon) to meet you(of cos you are the one who suggested meeting up, cos he/she would rather meet each other when they are free), he/she will be busy calling/sms-ing each other every second or to be less exaggerating, at least once in an hour. They can't bear not hearing from each other for some time.

4. "Hey but I need to go off early." That means he/she has to meet his/her other half after meeting up with you shortly, his/her other half will be picking him/her up or sending him/her home. Ok the ladies are the ones that need to be sent home.

5. "Hmmm I don't feel like going out." He/she missed out the "with you". Cos you'll see him/her rushing to meet his/her other half right after hanging up. Like I say you are not his/her priority. But you should feel glad that at least he/she bothers to come up with an excuse(although a lame one) to make you feel better, or should you not?

You can definitely come up with more scenarios than these 5. I found it amusing when a friend told me that whenever there's an outing, he'll inform his attached friend, just for the sake of informing, out of basic courtesy, because he knows the answer he'll get. Yah I know, you have to be a lil' self sacrificial in a relationship. But sacrificing almost all your time, losing all your friends and people who care about you.... I don't think that's very sensible. Yes "you won't understand because you are not in it (the relationship)" That's very true, because we, as different individuals, have different thinkings and ways of handling relationships and definitely different priorities. I do not feel sad for such couples. In fact I pity them, they cling on so tightly to each other that once this rope snaps, both of them will lose their balance in life, and their world will come crashing down, cos their world consist of only each other. I have a friend who told me, that just after a break up, he was feeling very down and the worst thing was, he couldn't find any friend to talk to. Why? As he said, he had placed all his stakes on a ship and that ship has sunken. He regretted it badly. Another friend told me his friend was in the same boat and what to do? His friend crawled(yes, that's the word he used) back to the clique. That is why I always share a cruel advice with people around me -- Don't regret the day, when something happens between the two of you and only to realise no one is there for you. Curse me if you wish for friends shouldn't be so calculative. My bad. But you can't blame me, because if he/she no longer remember me as a friend then why should I bother? You can't expect me to be there for someone who haven't been there for me. Like a relationship, friendship can only be sustained if both parties put in effort. It's a two way thing. A friend complained to me that he wished his friends would ask him out more often and not take for granted that he won't be free just because he is attached. His case is different for he isn't one to ditch his friends for his girlfriend, but sometimes I wonder if people who make such complaints put in enough effort and on their part ask their friends out? Because friends do get annoyed/irritated/disappointed/tired/dejected after consecutive rejections.

Perhaps because when one is not in it, one can see things clearly in a third party's perspective. Perhaps one can see and understand more than those in it. Yet another friend provided a very valuable advice. That such experiences teach us not to treat other friends the same way we were treated, the next time we get attached. But then again you'll probably get too smitten with that someone that you'll soon be lost in a world of your own. Hey let's also not forget friends who are happily attached without having to sacrifice their own social life, their friends and everyone around them, at least not to such an extent.

*To all my faithful readers and people who stumbled upon this blog by accident, thanks for staying tuned. *

=L plate=

Savvy savvy

Thanks to Guo Mei Mei (郭美美), my blog has gotten quite a number of hits via the Yahoo Search Engine. Obviously these passers-by ain't here to check on my blog (0r me) but stumbled upon it while searching information of her and the song 老鼠爱大米. And thanks to that fugly (a new word I learnt from a friend, dicepher to your own liking) passport sized photo in i-weekly, I'm once again in touch with friends I have not contacted since years ago. You won't be so naive to believe that we were grabbed from the streets and interviewed, would you?

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I don't feel right about rejecting guys when they do not express their feelings explicitly. To be explicit here means to tell the girl he likes her, through words and not actions. I mean what if I tell a guy I don't like him and he tells me I've never said I like you and I never did. So hinting comes across as a good alternative. But some guys just don't get it. I dunno if guys are trying to delude themselves or are they plain insensitive. I've got guy friends telling me that no, guys really don't take hints and while others tell me that they'll automatically back off if they fail to secure a date after a few attempts. The latter would understand that the girl is simply not interested. Ask me out once and I tell you I'm busy, then I'm busy. Ask me out twice and I still tell you I'm busy, then I must be real busy. Ask me out the third time and I still tell you I'm busy, then I'm seriously not interested in you. Ask me out for the forth time and I give you the same reply, look, would you please get off my back! I don't know how guys think. But being friendly to you doesn't mean the girl has taken a liking to you; having a meal with you doesn't mean she's prepared to date you; going to a concert with you doesn't mean she wanna have sex with you. (Ok, that's adapted from Chase). Sometimes I wonder if guys think too much or do they not think at all, which explains why they don't take hints and read too much into a girl's gesture. I'm not trying to flame guys here, though I have to admit many are immature and only capable of making racket. Guys mature later than girls, so probably the time comes when they are in their mid twenties?? God knows how long it'll take. Having said that, there are still many who are mature and reliable lah. Oh you must be thinking that you belong to this group, right?

So perhaps next time, you can try telling the girl straight that you like her. So that the girl can reject you right in your face. That makes the whole job easier, ain't it?

=Antoli, Carrie loves you. So does everyone=

Classroom Fight

on the chalkboard..... They probably didn't know how good they were.

Credits to Cowboy Caleb and Mel.

Lambasted

Melancholy has taken over me. It has always been residing in me, but it engulfs me at times, so badly that I withdraw myself. But for tonight, a long chat with a certain friend has sparked it off.

Anyway, my friend had sent me an sms earlier to inform me of a flasher in Hougang area after catching it on the news bulletin. That was a very kind gesture, cause that's where I happen to stay. And for the statistics, I've met several bus molesters, and one flasher right under my block who then followed me up in another lift. Two policemen came to take my statement and took me around in their patrol car to locate the flasher, who strike again after I made my report. Did I mention that they are 2 tall, and handsome looking young policemen? My cousin, who stays in the same block as me, (we have 5 units under the same block) was almost raped, yes at the same void deck. And this reported flasher who appeared at block 680, Hougang Ave 8 (just a stone's throw away from where I stay), wears a G-string and masks his face. Sounds like a freak, no to be exact, all flashers are freaks. The thing that irks me, besides the fact that these flashers are psychopathic, is that some guys actually feel that us girls are over reacting and that we won't lose a piece of meat from being touched or by looking at someone who exposes himself. Fuck off. So do you mean that we have to put up with all these mentally unsound actions just because we have nothing to lose? Please do not forget that some vulnerable girls do suffer from traumas even by being touched. I bet you wouldn't be so nonchalant if the offended girl is your girlfriend, you'll definitely react in another manner. Hey it doesn't mean that only your girlfriend is human. It doesn't mean we have to tolerate such actions and let them get off scott-free time and again. What if they get worse, what if they evolve from molesters to rapists? Is it only til then when we actually lose something, our chastity that we are considered not over reacting? That only then are we actually able to kick a big fuss?? Guys. You can't talk like that just because you won't experience such stuff. Unless you do come across some perverted aunties. But you don't have anything to lose what. Oh, did that sound familiar?

Yet there are some girls who suffer in silence when being offended. Please don't be dumb. You are only giving the molester/flasher/rapist another chance to attack another innocent victim. Having said that I do understand that some girls are too startled to do anything and needs time to recover, especially if they are unfortunately, sexually assaulted. I sympathize with them but I really hope they try to pick themselves up. For the flasher that I've met, I've come to realise that my neighbours' daughters had actually seen him a few times. They came up to ask me after the police came to my house. They said their daughter ran away when they recognise the flasher from far. Please please call the police, otherwise you wanna run away everytime you see him?

My mum's beginning to get paranoid after that piece of news. Telling me to be very careful and asking me to make my friends send me home. Whenever such news break out in my area she'll tell me to let her know when I'm reaching home so that she can wait for me downstairs. But I never did. It ain't safe for her too! I do agree it isn't safe in my area, robbers, rapists, flashers, murderers, molesters, stalkers, even loan sharks. You name it. And it doesn't help that the neighbourhood police isn't efficient (albeit good looking). Oh and perhaps cause my house is near to the Woodbridge?

=morbidity=

Scaling

I attended this National short play (drama) competition for secondary and tertiary students, yesterday. I was overwhelmed by the number of PRC students. Almost 80% of the students taking part in the competition were PRCs. I wasn't fully aware of the situation until yesterday, eventhough I know the number of PRCs in Singapore is increasing. Their very coherent and perfect grasp of the language was too much for me (and a number of others) to bear, eventhough we are all involved in Chinese Drama. We joked about having to listen to english songs when we get home that night. I was very taken aback by the fact that for two of the groups sent by VJC (which happened to be where I was from), which had about 15 people, out of which only one was a non-PRC (who happened to be my junior from AHS). From what I recollected years ago, there wasn't any PRCs in VJ, perhaps one or two whom I did not notice. Yah I know there were a number of India Scholars who excelled in track and field, but no, I don't recall PRCs. Besides, VJ is known to be a more ang moh school, eventhough it may not be totally true.

It was indeed a relief to see a fully Singaporean production (meaning a short play put up by purely local students). Lest you think I'm slamming the PRCs in any way, you've got me wrong. I've got absolutely nothing against them. What I'm tryin to say here is that it is sad to see that Singaporean students are not particularly interested in the chinese culture. Ok it doesn't mean you have to be involved in chinese drama/short play to prove your enthusiasm for chinese culture. It could also be that the schools picked the PRCs from the chinese (drama) society to represent them simply because they were outstanding or in terms of language they had an edge. But purely by looking at this competition, I have to say that at least in the context of secondary and tertiary chinese drama (and perhaps linked to culture), the PRCs are indeed the more active parties. Six years ago, when I first supported my school team in this very competition, the situation wasn't like this at all.

So, the guest of honour went on to talk about how we should learn chinese and come to grips with chinese culture for economical reasons and how they can help us establish ourselves in the China market. Yes, definitely it's true that having a good understanding of the language and the culture helps us in interacting with the china associates. But this should not be the reason why we learn Mandarin and foster Chinese culture. In fact, to put it in this way is an insult to those who genuinely love chinese culture and language as well as those who are involved in the related industries.

I hope I don't get sued.

=Two cents worth=

An outing to Sentosa before Kiat leaves for US, Xin leaves for HongKong and Yi leaves for France. Those going for holidays not counted lah... But it was a day without the sun!! Only the sand and the sea. It was sunny when we reached Harbour Front. But had to wait for the legendary Yong, who never fails to be late. Then the sky turned all dark and gloomy, I was told to call him Yu(Rain), cos he claimed the moment he stepped out, it threatened to hail a sandstorm. Someone would always bring a camera along for any of our outings, even for dinners and clubbing. But no one brought this time round! Mainly because everyone thought someone would bring and everyone was afraid of it getting wet or stolen.


First we got so boh liao that we played this at the playground. But derived much pleasure haha. Don't think it's only the gals, the guys played too lor...



Then we made a skeleton in the sand out of accident while the guys went to rent a volleyball, with Ling's finger stuck in the nostril.



Then for those who went into water, we look like ants on a plate. From left to right: Yandao Yong, me, Ling, Elaine and Cutie Kiat. I had such a hard time getting on the float that Yandao can longer stand it and carried me haha. Look at the direction he's turning to, yeah u got it, he's beo-ing a chiobu(at least he thinks so). Now I know, it's better not to use zoom on my phone, otherwise the picture dimension will turn out to be very small.



After a day on the island, we were all tired and famished, eventhough there was no sun to tan (u usually feel tired after stayin under the sun) and we only played a lil' volleyball. This was what we cleared at Sakae. I think the waitress cleared some, we had another Bento rite?

Hey guys, the pix are uploaded on my photo album. But there's a 10 seconds clip which I don't know where to upload leh....

Bad bad Agents

I alighted from the bus and saw 2 guys clad in the same attire hastily walking towards me at full speed. One caught me before the other. He had a thin stack of half-A4 sized papers on small clip board and approached me.

Bad Sales Tatic 1
Pretending to know the potential customers you approach. Or trying to hit on one.

"Hey do you remember me?"
"Hmm..." *You mean I know you??*
"Eh you don't remember me ah?"
"Huh..." *Who the hell are you!*
"Where are you studying now?"
"Erm.... I'm studying... yah..."
"Where?"
"NUS....That stack of papers... You wanna do survey isit?? "
"What year?"
"Third... Is that for survey?"
"Oh 85?"
"No. 83"
"Same as me!"
"Yes u doing survey huh?? I'm rushing for time."
"I'm also rushing for time."
"Ok then I need to go."
"Do you think $70 bucks per month is alot?"
"Hmm... dunno"
"What dunno...As in to save consistently per month. Is it alot?"
"Err.. consistently....Yah should be..." *Sways head from side to side*
"Eh you very cute leh"
*-_-"*
"But seriously do you save?"
"Depends."
"$70 isn't that much to ask for. Putting aside $70 bucks every month..."
"Errr...."
"What about the savings you have. Enough to cover what."
"......"
"Do you have like $1000 in your bank?"
"....Yah....but..."
"Then it's enough for deduction"

Bad Sales Tatic 2
Sways board in hand while talking and hits the potential customer on her elbow. (That is me lah!)
Without apologizing.

Bad Sales Tatic 3
Trying to show how capable you are in front of your potential customer.

"So you are trying to sell some policy?"
"Yah. Prudential. It's basically..."
"Don't bother. I have a friend doing that and he's been bugging me." *This isn't just an excuse. I really have a senior whom I wasn't familiar with and never contacted but suay suay met outside Chinatown mrt one day. He was doing "this survey" and ended up contacting me trying to sell me policies. Luckily for me, the nightmare has ended.
"Oh then he can't be a friend. Do you think they are still called friends if they bug you to sign policies with them?"
"Ermz... yeah..."
"Seriously, none of my customers are my friends. ZERO."
"Yah... Ok.."
"I nver approach my friends for policies. Cannot let these things affect friendship."
"Yup...So..."
"What's your friend's name?"
"AXXXN" *Tell me you know him!!! Then can stop this rubbish!*
"There are so many agents with prudential, 3500 of them. You know what's the difference between agents and....."
*wasn't listening to what he said, so can't remember*
"Not that I'm trying to haolian, but we have 3500 agents at prudential and I'm one of the top 5"
*Siao ah, smoke me! Top 5 then how come you are here along the streets trying to hardsell your policy??*
"Come with me lah, take a look." Walking over to the seats.
"Err for what?!"
"Help me sign one lah"
"No, no, no, no, no...." *I really repeated many many NOs, I don't know how many*
"Sign lah..."
"Eh no lah, sorry."

He stood there with a cant-do-anything and it's okay expression, gestured to show it's fine. And finally I was able to go off.... Why the hell did I say sorry for? Actually it took up only about 10 minutes of my time. But it seemed so much longer writtened out. Can't stand his attitude with the super smug expression wirttened all over his face! Why did I choose to not to leave? i thought it'll be extremely rude that's why I always kena stuck in such situations.... I know I am stupid... But I am just like that.... Hmm then I cannot complain, right?

=Agent ZERO=

They are all malu-ating

Finally collected my phone. It broke down just 10 days after I bought it and the exchange policy was within 8 days. Damn! What luck. So for the past 5 days I had to carry a water-bottle looking phone around. And of course I didn't dare reveal it. I hid it in my bag, even when I sms. Yah I would refuse to pick up incoming calls, but apparently no one called when I was out. And if I had to make call outside, I'll reside in the toilet. Funny you would say, but you would have found it funnier if you had seen the phone. It was simply embarrassing. No one uses such phone anymore.... I was promised the phone would be ready in 1 or 2 days, but it took them 5 days. It didn't help that it was over the weekend and the public holidays. Okay the guy who attended to me over the phone when I called to ask for its status (who also called to tell me it's ready for collection) sounded cute and friendly while the one over at the counter looked cute, but I wanted my phone back badly.

Before I headed down to Panasonic, I went for an interview at PlayMusic. No lah not for a job interview. I was asked to help in giving some feedback and reviews reveof the regarding this new upcoming home grown singer called Guo Mei Mei(郭美美). Basically all I had to do was to listen to her newly released song <老鼠爱大米> (Translation: Mouse loves Big Grain) which is actually a cover version of a Mainland China song, with different music arrangements. Believe me the original version was such a hit in China, that when I visited GuangZhou in March, I heard it everywhere. My aunt there had even asked if I've heard this song in Singapore. It was a short interview took around half an hour and the reporter stumped me with a question "Why do think the title is like this?" I was thinking huh then can be like that meh? So I gave a pretty dumb answer. Gonna malu myself when it gets published. Actually I didn't get the reporter's question, he meant what is the meaning of the title. His fault lah never ask properly. And I was asked to hold this dumb looking score that he drew to pose for a few shots. Think I look like some moron. Didn't peek at the pictures, but they gonna turn out bad anyway. He said it will be out next week, in Singapore's best selling magazine. But don't expect much, it'll probably be a small corner out of the page. Yay~ with the stupid answer and the moron looking photo, I shall dig a hole and hide my face in it. (The hole needs to be big) The interview was carried out along with 3 15-year-olds. Yah they did prove to me through and through that they are indeed only 15. Got a complimentary album in return. It's Kenji's which I had already bought!! But it's just a token of appreciation so what more can I ask for?

=Why does mouse like big grains??=

A Blogger's Plight

Prologue
My life got pretty boring after exams. Feeling abit lost... Everyday is either rehearsal, meeting friends, or simply rotting away at home, although it wasn't too long since my last paper. I need a job... A temporary one that can fit into my rehearsal schedule before I start on my permanent job, so that I can take a break for a graduation trip. We were pretty bored at rehearsals today and started reading the scripts in Hokkien and Teochew.... It was hilarious. U had to be there to know it. I laughed so hard my stomach cramped.



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I've always thought that reading blogs about everyday-life is boring.... By everyday life, I mean something like listing down what they had done from 8am to 8pm or from Monday to Friday, supposing they had not blogged for the week. Who cares about how many times U had met your boy/girl friend, your friends, where you had visited, where and what you had for breakfast, lunch and dinner??? Unless of course, something interesting had happened along the way. These blogs are perhaps not meant for people to read, but just an online diary/journal of the blogger. But then again, blogs are meant to be read right? I did mention I didn't give a damn if no one reads my blog. Man I was being stupid, pretentious blah blah.... Comeon, that's the sole purpose of a blog lah! TO BE READ! And if response is good, as in many people read and comment on your blog, u are bound to be satisfied and erm maybe famous as well. Unless u dun publicise your blog url and no one else knows your blog. Then I have nothing to say. Bloggers usually give accounts of what happened to them, what they saw and etc. But they are usually experiences that do not happen everyday, something non-expected or happened out of the blue. Then there are other bloggers just have the gift to come up with some fictitious yet interesting stories or ideas everyday and yet remain so funny with each post.

I've always thought that bloggers are entitled to freedom of speech. After all isn't this the space for you to spout any rubbish and reveal any inner thoughts that one might have? Aren't we allowed to indulge in any issues that aroused us? But apparently this is not the case. I've seen and heard pretty much from the papers and by word of mouth that many bloggers have been warned, sued and asked to make public apologies as well as to remove their entries because they were found to be offensive in one way or another. Many people are jumping onto this bandwagon, that is, to start blogging. I have to admit I'm one of the latecomers. And while it is quickly turning into a widespread phenomenon, it's starting to attract more attention, some unwanted. U can bitch about someone u hate, just be careful of who he or she is. Cause u never know if that very person will somehow come across your blog. If that someone u criticised is just someone insignificant, then u are probably safe. But if that person happens to be a big shot or something, u are deemed to end up in deep shit. Ok maybe abit exaggerated. But trust me, u'll have to pay for it.

Well u'll never know. That professor u bitched about may somehow hit on ur blog through his/her colleague/friends, then u'll probably be graded a D or worse, an F for your paper. Or at the very least, expect some verbal trashing. And then there are these organizations that may track/randomly come across your blog via search engines, and may deem certain entry as offensive. It helps if u have a tracker, not simply a counter. And u'll probably realise that there are indeed referrers from search engines or through certain links. U never know who these people really are and what their motive is. It's always safe to joke about yourself and your friends, criticize someone from the street. But it's best not to get involved in certain you-know-what sensitive issues. Oh and if u think u are safe by just leaving out the name, I think u are probably not, if u had made such an obvious hint.

Man it's no longer safe to blog anymore. Perhaps it wasn't to start with. I'm beginning to worry about this post. Will anyone think I'm tryin to imply something or is it offensive somehow?

=Dubiety=